I wish it was all just not real.

But it is. It is fucking real and it deeply hurts. The more you try to stand up, the more you get pulled down. I know this sound like ‘emo’ talk. At this point of things, I don’t even mind being called one. As a matter of fact, I just don’t give a fucking damn to anything anyone has to say. I’ve paid much attention and respect and anyone and everyone and always received shit in return. This time, I’m atleast gonna swear it. TO HELL WITH ALL.

I wish it was all just a dream and I could wake up and find out none of the scary things that really happened. But I hardly think it will be possible. It was a day that thrashes the basics. Throws you in confusion with a vengeance. Raises the middle finger in ultra slow motion. And puts you in shitload of heartbreak, fatigue and all sorts of shit. No, I’m not frickin’ talkin’ of any fuckin’ breakup.

This is goddamn real. I’m not even sure as to whether I will be able to type and complete this or my laptop will be go kaput by now. Because, you know, every fucking thing wants to mess with me.