Let me confess. I wasn’t really silenced.

This is a confession. A major one. I had written a post titled I’m Silenced long back. There I had said that I wasn’t allowed to play in the team because my parents didnt allow me to. It IS WRONG. They didn’t disallow me or anything.

The thing was, me and the coach weren’t getting along well and he was so mean to me as if I had done something personally bad to him. You see, it’s impossible to be in the team and play in such a condition. So, I had to stay away, i.e. Quit. I did.

And then, the bad feeling of regret attacked me and I was down for some time. A win at the home court was a dream of mine and when it happened, I wasn’t a part of it.

But, I couldn’t take the entire blame on myself, of having quit the team. So, off loaded it onto parents. I’m sorry for having done that. I had my own very strong reasons to quit the team and I still blamed my parents for it. Pretty unfair it is. But, parents are to forgive & love you even if you turn against them, aren’t they ?

They are. I’m ever grateful to my parents and what they’ve been giving me, is not just love, care & nutritious food; but something more. Much more.

(How great it feels to have confessed. Mind feeling lighter.)

Bliss. Finally.

It was something that was going on in me for the past one hour or so. Never in my life, I’ve blogged SIX POSTS on a single day.
http://notadiode.wordpress.com/2009/05/18/

So, I conclude, there is no feeling that can’t be conquered. I was feeling ’something’ and all it took was FIVE pointed posts to sort out all problems.

Yes. Opening up pays. I was being under pressure. I opened up. Threw it all over this place. And I’m good now. Very good indeed.

And the ones who helped me; you’re really sweet and dear.

This is RollerCoaster stuff

You feel a lot insecure and unstable one moment. And some time after, you feel perfectly alright.

Now that’s something that happens to every human, I believe. Coz, I can’t hear one more guy reading this and saying “That’s weird”.

Thanks to all the lovely people, who helped me on my way back to awesomeness. You Rock!

Status Update

I finished my schools. Results will be out within 6-10 days. Not that I’m eager about it, but, some things will come for you.

And next plan. Kinda big deal. Plans to take up B.A. in Sociology from IGNOU. In fact, that’s the lightest and least important part of the big deal, I talked about.

The big deal, is projects projects and more projects. I really hope those projects don’t end up as yet another chapters for my book “Ideas that passed by. I was helpless”.

Wants to take a break. A B.R.E.A.K.

I want to move away. To some cool, peaceful place – a cottage perhaps and spend some time there, alone.

It’s been a while I’ve got this in my mind. Wrote this out, because, it’s even better than just wishing for it to happen.

Totally free

I’ve got a feeling in mind now, that I want to OPEN UP AND BE FREE.

I dont care about the text alignment. I dont care about the permalinks. I dont care to categorise my posts. I dont even care to use the visual editor.

Published this right from the dashboard.

It’s great to say what you feel, without having to think of customers/readers.

Why am I back ?

I almost abandoned this place some months back and I’m back here now. Why ? Simple. Keeping away, didn’t help.

I thought of sharing my mind at my (aravind.)posterous(.com). But, it turned out to be catering something valuable to knowledgeable people. That is, I’ve pressurised myself about the content thats to be published there. AND I CANT DO JUST THAT AND SHUT UP.

I need to open up. And that’s why I’m here. It doesn’t matter to me, whether people read this or not. All I want is some open space. And, I’ve found it here.